A few picture.. to prove I wasn't lying!

Its a sad day...

Well Jason woke me up just after 6am this morning because its SNOWING... the cars are covered, its actually really coming down out there and who knows when the hell its going to stop. I didn't really believe Jason, so I had to get up and look and then I was too upset to go back to sleep! So its Saturday morning and Ive been up since just after 6am and ITS SNOWING! Its not even October.. we didn't get summer and now we aren't going to get Fall either!!!! Fall is my favorite time of year... this makes me so sad.
Well on that note I might as well make good use of my time, so I'm going to do some laundry and get some stuff ready for dinner because I want to get as much done because we plan to be gone all day tomorrow!

Winter has arrived.. and Im not happy about it!

Well winter has arrived, its officially the coldest it has been here and its not looking to get any warmer.. ever. The mountains are officially covered in snow, Walmart has moved out all of the Halloween stuff and have Christmas trees out.. Apparently people here don't believe in fall. However fall seems to be officially over, most of the trees lost all their leaves already!!

Unfortunately Jason was home sick this week, Tuesday night he went to bed feeling off, he got up at 2am and was super sick! Believe it or not he stayed home from work on Wednesday which if you know Jason at all you know is out of character. He wasn't keeping anything down, was running a fever and was ghostly. Before work I went and got him the basics, ginger ale, Gatorade, saltine crackers, etc. At lunch I went and got him some pedialite and pepcid AC, Pepto tablets.. anything I could think of. I told Dana what was going on and she gave me a script for anti nausea pills because he had started throwing up spotty blood (puked so much he tore something in his stomach). I took him everything at lunch and was worried about his color. I made him some soup but I knew he wasn't going to touch it.

I talked to Tom about what was going on and ended up leaving work early, I knew it was probably just the flu but Jason never ever gets sick like that and with a high fever and his lack of color, puking up blood I just wanted to be around. When I went home he was sleeping so I ducked out and went and got some groceries, more soup and stuff.

Thursday he still wasn't better and stayed home again from work, he was still running a fever and had no color... probably on account that he hadn't eaten anything at all. He was keeping down the pedialite but that was about it. So I pretty much told him if he didn't get some soup down he had to go to the doctors. I went home last night and made him some soup and crackers and he nibbled on and off for awhile and seemed to have better color. He went to bed early last night and it seemed his fever had broke which was good. Today he went to work but still wasn't feeling his best, I took him some ginger ale at lunch and we are planning on a light dinner.

This weekend we are planning a trip to Denali National Park. The park road is opened again for the 30 mile drive in and I think its going to be a beautiful time of year to go! I wasn't sure it would be possible with Jason having had time off this week being sick but I think we might still swing it! I guess everyone was sick at work this week, off two or three days so hes not really being penalized!

Anyways cant wait to share my pictures! I must run for now I have a move out to take care of at 5:30pm and then I am going home. Its been so cold and miserable here today I cant wait to get home and get comfy for the night!

Hope everyone has a great weekend!!!

Asshole vs. Enabler...

Isn't this the age old question.. who is the bigger bitch? Assholes who treat other people badly or their enablers who let them be that nasty miserable human being by not standing up for themselves or those who are negatively affected by the nasty behavior? I just can't decide.

I'm not going to lie lately I am having a really hard time with people and their inconsiderate bullshit ways! I'm not saying I'm perfect, nor am I expecting anyone else to be.. obviously! although it seems that lately people just seem to be worse and worse!

In the last 6 months.. well.. wait, I think that's being a little generous.. in the last 6 weeks have you made plans with someone and had to change them for reasons beyond your control and they were an asshole about it? Has someone called you to get together and you didn't have time or didn't really feel like it and they didn't return your call or email after you let them know? Has someone been completely shitty to you for absolutely no reason and you find yourself thinking back wondering what you might have done to deserve being treated that way? Well let me save you some time, YOU DID NOTHING! People are just shitty!!!

No one seems to care about how their actions affect other people!! No one extends respect like they should, hell forget respect no one seems to extend common decency anymore! Think about it, when was the last time you held a door for someone and they said "thank you", or when you sneezed they said "bless you"... you know, your regular common courtesy!

Do I get mad and lose patience.. HELL YES! Do I take out my lack of patience out on other people... ABSOLUTELY NOT! Not only do I not do those things but I sure as hell don't allow people to do that to people I care about!! I deal with peoples bullshit all the time but when they treat someone I love like that I seem to be a lot less tolerant, funny how that works.

Lately I just find myself asking why I'm so tolerant or peoples bullshit, I want to throw my cell phone in the ocean and escape the ignorance that seems to surround me! Things that I usually love and enjoy I don't want to do on account that I feel like there is always someone around to ruin it.. if not in the moment then later.

I use to think that when you became an adult you didn't have to deal with bullshit anymore, you didn't have to do things that you didn't want to, you didn't have to deal with people you didn't want to.. funny how it seems to be the total opposite. So when do you say enough is enough.. are we back to the conversation about social etiquette again? I'm getting to the point with people that I could care less about social etiquette, I'm sick of feeling like I'm wearing a sign that says "Door mat, feel free to wipe your shoes"..

TREAT PEOPLE HOW YOU WANTED TO BE TREATED!!!!!! Words to live by, apparently not everyone was taught that as a child, and therefore they didn't teach their child and now its a vicious circle of generations of assholes. So I think now is the time to break the cycle!!

If you're an asshole, I'm going to tell you.. if you act like an asshole because you don't get your own way, I'm going to tell you, if you're rude because you don't know any better.. I'M GOING TO TELL YOU.. because guess what.. if no one ever tells you.. then.... YOU NEVER FUCKING LEARN!

I'm no longer going to be a door mat and neither should any of you, maybe without even realizing it by not calling someone on their bad behavior your are allowing them to get away with it, showing them with your lack of actions that their actions are totally acceptable.

I'm sorry to rant, I feel like Ive done a good bit of that lately but sometimes you need an outlet and this is mine. I really feel like asking for a little respect isn't too much, expecting someone who is suppose to love you actually care about your feelings! So if no one else is going to care about my feelings or how other peoples actions affect me than I have to make myself a priority.

Really I think that's what Ive been getting at with my last few blogs.. MAKE YOURSELF A PRIORITY!

Not something you see everyday!

http://www.alaskadispatch.com/article/record-number-polar-bears-flock-whale-remains-kaktovik

Beauty at its finest!

I thought I would post this link, make sure to look at the pictures in the article they are absolutely beautiful!

http://www.alaskadispatch.com/article/drivers-and-critters-turn-out-denali-park-road-lottery-photos

Selfishness... friend or faux?

First and foremost I would just like to say that I am absolutely OVER this constant bullshit rain! We have had the most miserable weather the last couple of days and now everything is flooding, its a huge pain in the ass! Tomorrow I'm going to have to bust out my Hunter boots to cope because I'm sick of driving to work, especially with a truck with one head light.. Jason really needs to get that fixed.

Well possibly courtesy of the rain work has been really slow as well giving me quite a bit of time to think and crochet... but more importantly think.

Ive spent a lot of time pondering "selfishness"... what actually constitutes the word? I judge those who I think to be selfish, but am I too quick to point a finger?

I feel as though I'm not selfish, I never put myself ahead of others.. I always want to do as much as I possibly can to make others happy even if it comes at my own expense. Is that the definition of unselfishness or self destructiveness? To what extent can we always put someone else first without suppressing our own needs, to a point self sabotaging? Lately Ive wondered if my willingness to put others first has inhibited me from doing things that would make me happy, doing more things for me that might be good for my personal growth.

I love hot yoga, Ive always wanted to take a pottery class, I absolutely love to write, I want to go back to school, I love to get a Starbucks and walk around Barnes and Noble, I love to take a drive by myself with the music up.. I feel free! I don't do those things, not often, not as much as I should. But why? Why is it that I feel like I cant make time for the things that would make me happy? Why don't I feel like those things are worth making time for? What isn't going to get done if I take an hour to myself to do something that makes me happy? But I don't. Why?

I find myself surrounded by people that often make themselves a priority, some even at the expense of other people.. is that OK? Is there ever a time when putting yourself first even if it means hurting someone else is acceptable? I don't think it is.

I absolutely LOVE to do things big or small that I know might bring a smile to someone else's face! A post card (although yes I know I'm not as good as I could be with those), a coffee, a magazine I knew they might like. I make sure Jason has everything he likes for snacks, I look for little treats, cards, etc just because I know it will put a smile on his face. I love knowing that a small gesture can make a huge difference in someones day, I love to know that I can be responsible for someones smile. But why not put more effort into my smile? Why not do things that would make me smile?

I have learned over the years to never rely on someone else to make you a priority, that you need to be in a good place personally, be happy with yourself before you can ever be happy with anyone else. Not to say that I'm not happy but I think if I am as happy as I am without making myself a priority, if I took a couple of hours a week for me, whether it be to work on an online course, or grab a coffee and walk around the book store.. how happy could I be?

I guess I don't know the fine line, I don't want to be selfish, I don't want to be that person who does whatever they want, whenever they want because they want.. but I feel like by making myself so available, so accommodating and always putting others first my feelings sometimes fall by the wayside.

I think everyday everyone should do one thing for themselves! Make yourself a priority, YOU DESERVE IT! Sit with a tea and a book for a half an hour a day, take a walk, buy yourself one of those trashy magazines on the stand at the grocery store. You don't need to spend a fortune, you don't need to neglect others things, but find time because you are important! I started tonight, writing this blog with a sweet orange tea in my favorite mug.. it put a smile on my face!

Jason just got home, he went to the gym and when got home he flew through the door in a frantic search for the camera and umbrella.. with all this rain the creek behind the house has flood so bad there is barely a trail anymore! Instead of the water being 6 feet below the bridge its about 6 inches! Naturally Jason needed to get out there and be right in the middle of it, I'm sure if my Hunter boots fit him he would have taken those too. We are suppose to get a brief reprieve from the rain tomorrow but back at it all weekend and into next week!

Deanna left today, she will be in town for the weekend but leaves Monday for Seattle for a week so I get the luxury of doing all of month end by myself.. go figure! Mel and Myles leave Tuesday morning at 6am which saddens me beyond belief but I will have to work on Tuesday so at least I wont be sitting at home dwelling on it!

Jason is super busy at work right now and may have to work on Sunday, either way our plan is to be around the house I think. The guys are all requesting pumpkin chocolate chip cookies so I'm going to bake on Sunday and if Jason is home I think he is going to make Chili! Fall/winter is definitely in full swing here so we thought we would get in the spirit. I went out this past Tuesday and switched to fall scents.. candles, febreeze, etc. Starbucks has their pumpkin spice latte out.. now if this rain would just screw off so we can get outside and enjoy whatever weather. Alaska weather.. go big or go home.. apparently that's how it works!

If I don't get here again before the weekend I hope everyone gets out and enjoys whatever weather you might be having! Remember.. take 5 minutes to yourself, or 15, or a whole hour! You're worth it.

Welcome to Alaska...

....where no matter what the weather may be, you can expect a lot of it!

http://www.alaskadispatch.com/article/days-rain-give-way-widespread-flooding-southcentral-alaska-video

This is interesting...

http://www.alaskadispatch.com/article/new-icebreaker-bolsters-russian-supremacy-arctic

Seriously?

I've had enough of this bullshit!

http://www.alaskadispatch.com/article/another-storm-bearing-down-southcentral-alaska

Fall has officially arrived!

Well hello all,

I don't have a lot to tell but I thought I would stop in and post some pictures from last nights moose encounter! We've had super crappy weather the last couple of days and so with Jason's parents leaving today and having not seen any wild life we thought we would get some frozen yogurt and go for a drive! We really didn't go far, like I said with the rain and cold we didn't figure that there would be much out! We saw two moose though, they were just hanging out on the side of the road.. check it out..

 

We saw two of them, the first one and then you can kind of see the Mama behind the fence in the last pictures. It was so crappy out and starting to get dark that I couldn't seem to get a good pictures on my phone. Note the leaves though.. Fall is officially in the air!

 

As we were driving around we also came across a motor cross track that we didn't know existed.. Jason was pretty excited about it! We did know it was there, it would be cool to go and watch them in action. Here is the track, or some of it.. looks out over the ocean!

 



So that's our scoop, we dropped Jason's parents off at the airport and came back and got things in order for the start of a new weeks. Jason was talking down the air mattress.. lol it was such hard work!

 

Jason and Bubba just got off the phone so we're going to order a pizza and probably go to bed early! Having one day off and than having to go back to work just sucks.. I miss two day weekends! I guess I shouldn't complain though, at least I get two days off a week, more than I can say for Jason!

 

Hope everyone had a great weekend, a dryer one than we had too!!

 



When it rains it pours...

https://www.alaskadispatch.com/article/weather-warning-anchorage-could-be-another-big-wild-weekend

Oh dear...

http://www.alaskadispatch.com/article/airfield-hotel-evacuated-manhunt-suspect-shooting-police-officer

Winter has Arrived!

I know that I have already said that we have gotten snow in the mountains but we are now getting COLD weather! We have already been at freezing temps, we wake up in the morning to frost everywhere.. its absolutely ridiculous!

Jason's parents and brother are visiting so I haven't had much of a chance to get on the computer but I thought I would put something up quick with a few pictures I have sitting that way I can make room to take new ones!

It really has been cold, Saturday morning Mel and I went out to get the guys coffee and it was FREEZING!!! Look at the mountains in the morning though.. so pretty!

Sunday morning we decided to head down to Seward with everyone and make a stop off at Exit Glacier because that is something Jason and I have been wanting to do as well. It was a beautiful day for it and a beautiful drive up but let me tell you it was windy as all hell up there.. you wont see that in these pictures but wait until I send the snapfish album and you see my hair blowing all over the place. My ears were aching so bad it was that windy.. absolutely amazing though.. how often do you get that close to a glacier! Check it out!

We couldn't get as close as we wanted to because they had it all roped off because the ice was unstable but it was still amazing! These are the things that we do that I feel so grateful to be here!

It was rough being out of cell phone range to get any service to check the score of the games! poor Jason kept asking me to check service. This is the picture he had me take for Mom before we left the house!

On the way back from Exit Glacier we decided to go to Seward for lunch, honestly it was like a ghost town already there. Most of the cruise lines are shutting down and a lot of the restaurants appeared to be closed for the season, but there was a cruise shipped docked and surprisingly still no people!

This is the fishing boat Dad, Uncle Stick, Jason & Josh took halibut fishing!!

Holland America Cruise Line I believe it was called!

 

So what else is going on.... Well poor Mr. Myles is suffering from a bilateral ear infection and an upper respiratory infection! That poor guy! He has been stuffy for quite some time but with teething and no fever Mel thought it could all be attributed to that. Finally after being stuffy for almost 3 weeks she took him to the doctors and that's what he said. Hes on antibiotics for now, and hopefully will be feeling much better soon. As you can tell yesterday at lunch he was just not himself...

 

 

Anyways football season is working out well for me so far, they do a pool at Jason's work every week for all the games and Jason let me in on it and I won!! HAHA! I won $75 playing against all these guys.. haha I love it! I'm not at all upset about the $75 but with a bunch of guys its nice to have the bragging rights too! However I did not win the family pool, haha Mom won that one! That guys obviously all did spectacular this week! Dad says he wants half because he taught me everything I know. He's not wrong but I'm not sharing.. haha maybe with next weeks earnings!

 

So before I sign off I wanted to make mention of some pretty spectacular news I heard yesterday! I have heard through the grapevine that Uncle Stick and Aunt Bren have quit smoking!!!!!! AMAZING!! Jason and I are so proud of you guys!! How do you think we go about getting everyone else on your band wagon?? We we are so happy for you guys, you are adding years to your life and we really want you around! We love you tons!!

 

Alright I'm signing off.. haven't had a call at work in hours, going to make some more slippers.

 

Hope everyone is having a great week!

ARE YOU READY FOR SOME FOOTBALL?!?!

That's right, FIRST REGULAR SEASON GAME TONIGHT! Dallas vs NYG.. obviously Jason HATES NYG but you know they've got this!! (as you can tell I haven't seen the end of the game either, we recorded the 4th quarter and are watching it now).

Well things are looking up since I last blogged, its been a really crappy week plus of rain and cold everyday! Yesterday was the calm before the storm.. kind of! Mel and I decided instead of driving out to Eagle River or something we would stay in town because they were calling for super high winds! So we walked down to site to get the truck from Jason, check out Myles.. friggin' cute or what? Got to love his fall wear!

 

As you can tell it was a little chilly, you cant see it but I too was sporting my winter hat! We headed to the bears tooth for lunch which was AMAZING! I had a turkey club that was full of sprouts, avocado, jalapenos and basil aioli.. I mean seriously too good for words! Mel's garlic cilantro fries were nothing to complain about either! Seriously in the short time it took us to have lunch the wind had already picked up, so because Myles fell asleep we just drove around town for awhile and then headed back to the apartment! On the way back to the apartment we decided that I would run all my stuff to the Salvation Army to get it out of the truck and Mel would play with Myles for a bit and than we would swap out and I would play with Myles at the apartment while Mel went to the grocery store. I was feeling pretty special on account that Myles has never stayed with anyone but his Grammy or his Mama his whole entire life.. now I can be added to the list!

 

Well I took all of Cheryl's stuff to donate and although I was sad to part with it I did take the time to go through it one more time and pull out a few more things to send to her. Anyways it was raining by this time pretty bad so I was in the very back of the truck pulling boxes to the tailgate while another guy emptied the back seat! I felt good after I left but still sad the get rid of her stuff. I got back to the apartment and Myles and I played while Mel headed to the grocery store. Check out Myles.. he had clearly had a long day!!

 

 

 

I mean seriously how do you not love that face? You should see him walk!

 

So while Mel was gone I emailed Jason and said that I had dropped off all the stuff and he wrote back asking did I make sure that they didn't take his CD case with all the Cd's in it.. FUCK! As soon as Mel got back I ran down to the truck.. NO CD CASE! FUCK! So I get in the truck and go straight back to the Salvation Army and I see the guys who helped me.. no one remembers it! I searched through a TON of boxes with this kid, cant find it. I walk through the warehouse with all the tables, cant find it. I leave.. defeated. I get in the truck and call Jason and sob.. I felt so terrible, I don't know how I could have done that, I was trying to do a good thing and fucked it up.. I just cried. Jason was good about it, obviously not impressed but good about it. He probably somewhat thought that I did it intentionally because I always say that we never ever use any of those Cd's, we have all our music on our ipods and we never ever switch out Cd's and its not like we have room for it.. go figure now its gone.

 

Well Jason comes home from work.. low and behind the bugger put it in the storage closet the night before anticipating that something like that might happen! He didn't actually remember that he had done that, and thankfully they were there but after digging through a bunch of boxes, running around in the rain and being so upset, I wasn't impressed.

 

By the time Jason got home the weather had really gotten bad, the winds were unbelievable.. check out some of the articles...

 

http://www.alaskadispatch.com/article/wild-winds-and-flying-trees-no-problem-winter-hardy-anchorage

 

 

Seriously the winds got up to 131mph.. trees were uprooted everywhere, power was out to most of Anchorage all night and all day, everyone was without Internet.. cars damaged, homes damaged.. absolutely crazy! This is what I saw on my walk to work this morning.

 

 







This wasn't even close to all the damage, when going to the grocery store and stuff tonight everywhere is a mess. The river is the highest its ever been.. they get the weirdest weather here!

However while being out tonight the clouds finally lifted and we actually saw a bit of the sun for the first time in.. well.. honestly I cant remember how long.. check out what was in the mountains.

 

That's right.. SNOW! There was snow the other night.. you could see it snowing but the mountains are now officially quite covered. They are calling for an early winter here.. probably just as bad as last year too.. can you believe that? Honestly I feel like if I didn't have bad luck I would have no luck!

 

On a good note though I did see a moose today! I was sitting at my desk and the friggin' thing was running like a bat out of hell down the road! Just a little thing, but soak and wet and on the move! Of course I jumped out of my seat and ran out to get a good look, Carl made fun of me.. haha apparently I'm still a little bit of a tourist! I just honestly don't ever see it getting old.

 

So that's really it, work was dead today.. what else is new. Deanna brought up about Cheryl moving and I said that Jason and I helped her and she didn't seem to care said as long as she was gone.. nice right! Shes a bitch, it is what it is.

 

Alright I'm going to go to bed, I have some stuff to hang up in the washer and then I'm heading to bed. I haven't slept in days.. random crappy broken sleep of a few hours a night just isn't cutting it for me. As the days go on and I don't get any sleep I get more cranky! I'm on a mission to get some good coffee! HAHA.. Jason just came out of the bedroom and put a sleeping pill on the table for me, apparently he thinks I'm not all that pleasant either!

 

I hope everyone is having a good week! Sorry I have been slack with the pictures, maybe I will take my camera to work over the next couple of days and hope to see the moose again! 

Snow?

Well I would like to start off by saying it snowed yesterday.. yes you heard me right.. it was snowing! September 2, 2012 we got a shit load of snow in the mountains.. that's like a 5 minute drive away. I mean we got snow on the 4th of July as well but this means its really coming.. its coming here.. on the ground!

Check it out....

 

 

So its been a pretty eventful weekend to be honest! It started off with a not so great Saturday, let me tell you.

 

 

I'm pretty sure that I have spoken about Cheryl Walker before, she is a wonderful lady who moved into Creekside about 3 months ago. She is an older lady who moved up to Anchorage by herself for a job as a social worker with the State. She would be working with soldiers who suffered from Post Traumatic Stress Disorder. I did all of her move in, all the correspondence in setting up her move in, etc and really became quite fond of her.

 

At the beginning of last week I got an email from Cheryl saying that without notice she had been released from her job. She said that she would pay for August rent and when she received her last paycheck she would pay Septembers rent and be out by the end of the month. She would be breaking her lease but what could she do? Well her last paycheck ended up being $99.00.. not even close to enough to pay rent. She was obviously MORTIFIED and said that she would do everything she could to be out by the end of August because she couldn't pay for September.

 

Keep in mind she probably didn't have much savings on account that she moved all the way out here, had all her stuff shipped, and has just bought a whole bunch of new things for her apartment thinking that she was planning to settle here and retire at this job.

 

Her move in was something to be desired in the first place, she found movers on the U-haul website and they were HORRENDOUS! Not her fault though, I mean she had to have someone move her stuff on account that she has a bad back and she needs both knees replaced desperately. Anyways when her movers left they left the front doors of the buildings propped open and having been a terribly long and stressful day Cheryl didn't think to go down and check.

 

She called me the following Monday and said that someone had left an anonymous note on her door saying that she wasn't welcome in the building and she didn't make a very good first impression leaving the doors open for perverts to get into the building. She was so upset! I got off the phone and was telling Deanna and said I couldn't believe that someone in that building would do that!! Deanna said Tom did it!! WAY TO BE PROFESSIONAL!! He's such a fucker.. I mean really?? What a great way to make someone feel over NOTHING!

 

So because Tom already doesn't like her he wasn't willing to cut her any slack. So she called me on Friday and said that she couldn't find anyone to help her move and clean the apartment. I tried to give her as much information for people that I thought might be able to help but when she called Saturday morning she said that nothing had worked out. When we spoke Saturday morning she was crying on the phone and said that Tom had come up to the apartment and said that we aren't a charity she needs to get out. Really? someone is at probably the lowest point in their life and you call them a charity case? She was trying, on the Saturday of a long weekend.. who the hell was going to help her? She had already had auctioneers come and get all her furniture and anything she had that she thought was worth something.

 

I felt absolutely AWFUL, I couldn't go and help her.. what could I do? So Carl our maintenance man said that he would bring his son back to help her pack some stuff and take as much as they could to the post office to send back to New York where she was going to live with her sister. They spent all afternoon until 5pm packing and moving stuff, but she still wasn't done. I wanted to help, when someone is down and out you don't kick them, you help in any way you can.

 

So when Jason got home from work we had dinner and went over to help. We took Cheryl dinner and I was under the impression that she just needed a few boxes taken to her car to go with her and she needed us to take some stuff to Goodwill. Well when we walked in it was as though nothing had been packed at all. Naturally Jason and I are pro star packers so we started in. We really were happy to help. So Jason made steady trips back and forth from our truck, trash and her car.. it was awful.

 

We spent all night watching Cheryl part with everything that she loved, had accumulated through a life time.. it was so sad. When we got home I stood in the living room and sobbed.. how does this happen to someone? At this point in her life she should be happy and healthy and have all her stuff, it just seemed so unfair, I was a mess. Jason hugged me and said that we did all we could to help and sometimes that means more than we realize, he seemed affected to. We decided to bring everything upstairs that she was donating and see if there was some stuff that we thought she would like to have and we would send her a box to her sisters where she was going. In going through the stuff Jason came across her sewing box, and said that it made him sad.

 

So I spent yesterday staring at this sewing box and crying. I called mom in the morning and I told her about what had happened and I sobbed, I talked to Barb in the afternoon and told her about what was going on and I sobbed.. I mean this is obviously something that has been passed along.. it hurts my heart for her.. so much.

 

 



I don't know why things like this happen to good people, whats worse is that no one cared to help her in her time of need. Jason and I went through things again last night and have a bunch of stuff to send her, maybe none of it has meaning, but I want her to have her stuff. I would love to send everything although its not realistic.

I have a brand new super expensive vacuum sitting in the spare room, a brand new kitchen aid mixer that Ive always wanted in the kitchen but there is no part of me that is happy about it on account that I feel like its wrong to benefit from someone elses misfortune. I kept a few things that she wanted me to have, and although we cant accumulate things I didn't have the heart to tell her, she wanted to do something good for others through her misery and I wasn't about to take that away from her. We are going to donate a bunch of her stuff to Goodwill and hopefully it will go to people who actually need it.

It makes me so sad that this is what has happened to her life, she doesn't deserve this, she doesn't deserve to lose all her belongings. Jason kept a tool box she gave to him, for all I know she got it at a garage sale but I couldn't help but wonder if it might have been her dads? She has no spouse, no kids, no one to be there fore her at a time like this.. how does that happen to someone?

Anyways moving on before I cry again. Jason has to work all weekend so yesterday I went over to Mel and Jason's for Myles first birthday party!  SO CUTE! We bought him a little pair of Toms boots.. super cute! Mel decided to make cupcakes for him, that look like cookie monster.. check them out!

 

Anyways that's is, nothing else exciting going on. Jason is working today as well, possibly going to get home a little early and I'm hoping to maybe take a drive or something. Louisa came in on Saturday to pay rent and told me that they were coming back from Girdwood and saw a whole school of Beluga Whales along Turnagain Arm, so I'm anxious to get out there and see that.

 

I have tomorrow off as well, being my regular Tuesday off before I start my month of working 6 days a week. Honestly I don't know how I'm going to go back, not only do I never feel refreshed after having time off it just makes it harder to go back. But this time its worse, I don't want to deal with Tom, I swear if I would have saw him on Saturday I would have told him what a bastard I think he is for the way he treated Cheryl. Jason and I were talking about it last night and I told him that this job isn't worth my morals and I cant stand the way they treat people. If he has something to say about Jason and I helping Cheryl I wont hold my tongue and Jason agreed.

 

I guess I'm going to sign off for now, I'm going to probably walk down to site and get the truck if Jason cant get the time at lunch to bring it to me. Its been super cold and miserable here for over a week. Fall weather has definitely set it let me tell you.. haha well winter I guess because of the snow!

 

I hope everyone had a super great weekend, if this weekend taught me anything its to appreciate everything you have because tomorrow it may be gone.